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The World Line of the Horizon Star

Some would say I was a lost man in a lost world


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...and as the flames climbed high into the night, to light the sacrificial rite...

I just got back from my noon walk. Oh Great Blue Blazes, I am angry! Holy shit. I would love to say that I am unsurprised by this, I mean, I knew that I was feeling frustrated and hurt, but damn. I was feeling numb and out of touch with myself all day yesterday. I knew this feeling, and I knew that there would appear a gap in a day or so, eventually and I would get a handle on things. The thing was, I was fully expecting a lot of sadness. I was out there walking, and thinking, and the more I reflected the angrier I got. As ignorant as it may sound, it kind of sneaked up on me. I guess I had to get away from circumstances where someone was invalidating my emotions by telling me how every disapproved emotion was invalid due to the fact that I have not yet had therapy or deFOO'ed. Shit. Shocking, but I think it's a good thing!

Anger is good. It can be useful. It is an indicator of where one needs to set a boundary, from what I have learned. I guess I need to set one. I suppose that I should question it, as well. Anger is also useful for masking something else, but I can at least put a boundary in place until I can figure things out. Good.